self-embodiment of perfection

I've been in several long-term relationships. I was engaged to someone from 2012-2014. Then I dated someone else for less than a year after that. From 2016-2018 roughly, I was in another long-term relationship. After that, I dated someone else very briefly. In 2018 I began my most recent relationship, which ended at the beginning of 2024. Along this timeline, I realized I didn't have much chance to be single. I never gave those breakups time to heal before jumping into the next one and throwing myself into the new relationship. So I'm enjoying being single now and really leaning into my individuality and what I want. I want to be firm in the things I want and can't compromise on. I also don't want to jump back into a monogamous relationship too quickly, if ever. I really just want to be sure what I want from a partner, and also, what I don't want. I'm enumerating that below. Things I will not settle for: Someone who tries to control what I do, say, or wear S

 Okay this is a clickbait title lmao. They get a lot of things wrong. The pro-Mahito weirdos on Twitter infantalize him and make him dumb af. Canonically, Mahito is well-read and shows us his capacity for reason, intelligent thought, and manipulation. The anti-Mahito weirdos everywhere else in the world think that Mahito is some psychopath who only exists to kill and he enjoys it--that's his single personality trait. I think both of these are doing a disservice to Mahito and Gege for that matter. He's a well-designed, multi-dimensional character that has a big impact in a short amount of time. I don't think anything about Mahito was meant to be 1-note or just as a service to the bigger plot. I mean he does service the bigger plot and there's some wasted potential there imo but he has layers to his character in between "just born" and "unfeeling psychopath".  Truth is Mahito is childlike sometimes, in his curiosity and ability to have fun. He follows

 I've alluded to this on Threads, but I have some medical conditions that are definitely going to disqualify me from being almost every kind of pilot except private. It's going to disqualify me because an FAA-approved medical examiner (AME) has to give me a physical and mental evaluation before giving me a first, second, or third class medical certificate (I need first class to be an airline pilot). For my specific issues, they result exclusively in either a deferral or denial. There's no scenario where I walk away from the AME approved and with a medical certificate, if I disclose those specific issues. And it looks like, from me pouring over the Guide for Aviation Medical Examiners, that having multiple issues like I do makes it more likely for it to be flat out denied. No airline pilot for me. My original plan was to just lie because there was no real way for them to verify or dig into my past. Except I didn't realize they could take medical records from the VA--with

Like every single person under the sun who is on dating apps, I'm having a blast and everything is going according to plan! Zero complaints. Imagine if it were like that though. Personally, I'm speaking of a gay dating app for women, called HER. I've met some cool people but most of the time they stop responding...or, I admit, I'm the one who stops responding. That can be for trivial reasons, such as me stopping responding to a trans man who was a certified gamer guy...that had never heard of No Man's Sky or Ghost of Tsushima. If you consider yourself a gamer, how have you never even heard of these titles? They're massively popular. I might also stop talking to someone if they only answer my questions with short answers and then, also, never ask me about myself. I'm very full of myself--get with the program. There were two women in particular that I thought I was going to have a connection with. People that I started talking to off the app. Okay there's

 No, these things have nothing to do with each other. I just want to write a little bit about each other. God, if only there were some cool platform I could post micro thoughts to that would become addictive to the point of irritation when my posts only get 4 likes. Oh well. Eureka Seven This is my youngest brother's favorite anime. He's been gently recommending it (read: harassing me) for over 2 years to watch it, since I started watching anime. The problem was I saw Gurren Lagann first and, while I love that anime, I realized I don't like mecha anime in general. So I was more than hesitant to watch Eureka Seven. But I am currently making my way through and I have just a few, simple questions: 1) What the hell is even going on? Why are they so vague about every single thing? 2) I don't know anyone's name on the Federation's ship. Who even is anybody? There's that snooty advisor brat from military headquarters. There's the cucked commander. There's A

Photo by Simon Hurry on Unsplash I am quick to be offended. Slow to forgive. I have a persecution complex almost as big as my god complex. I stay angry. Stay protecting those who never asked me to. I'm fighting new battles to make up for the ones I lost. There's heaviness in the memories but also in the things I forgot. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I never claimed to be unbreakable. All these cracks you see are fracture lines. Not by design, they're warning signs. I'm a glass cannon-- anything can be my fodder. You thought I was a bad son; I'm an even worse daughter. Fragile like a baby, like an egg just laid, like a hand grenade. This is just a bad dream, maybe. I've shattered into a thousand pieces. I'll shatter into a thousand more. I scream into the void and you scream back: "What are you so angry for?" "You're always out to prove yourself to a judge and jury unaware. You're making

  I posted 2 videos on 8/13 (Tues) focused on Eren Yeager and Levi Ackermann. If you didn't see them, it was essentially talking about some things I'm going through and using anime characters analogously to my life.  I took them down because a) they felt very vulnerable to be available on my profile all the time, and b) because I said some spiteful things about Levi that yes, I do mean, but I didn't like posting it publicly when I have a lot of friends who love him deeply. If you wanna see the videos, DM me on IG lol. I don't mind sharing them with certain people. I just don't want to keep them up on my page. But I must stress that it depends on who you are! Doesn't hurt to ask though. This is not an explanation nor is it an apology. I've felt for a solid week that I want to open up and share some things. I'm going to do that here though, where I can easily edit my feelings and analogies. I'm going through a tough time right now. Just a lot of compou