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Why I Disliked Attack on Titan the First Time but Loved it The Second time

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The Setup Early on in my anime-watching career, I heard that Attack on Titan was one of the best anime ever. Around 2023, before it was finished, my then-boyfriend and I started season 1. We got to episode 13 before quitting for something else. Well, I should say that *I* got to episode 13 before quitting--he gave up much sooner.  I wouldn't say I was proud of dropping it, but I held firm that I wasn't going to try it again. I just didn't get the hype. The story wasn't for me. The drama wasn't for me. I didn't like how it was being executed.  Or so I thought--fast forward to 2024, when I asked my friend Angie about it. She gave me an impassioned speech in my car, in the parking lot of a Vietnamese restaurant, on why she loved it and why I should give it another shot. I was convinced. I was going to give it another try. So I began again. It was probably not long after (she is very persuasive and the picture she painted made me want to watch it as soon as possible...
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1000 of our suns combined and it's not as hot as you and me together, baby

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Photo by Klara Kulikova on Unsplash 26 letters and not one combination can describe it A billion books printed and not one can define it But I can trace it on your face The angle of your jaw; The dimples in your cheeks. I don't get lost in your eyes, I get found. Yet it's you who comes to me for salvation. Get on your knees Worship me-- Our bed is an altar Your tongue is an offering Sing praises against my lips But it's me who will be rejoicing. He gets what he wants the first time, but he'll go twice more after that. He wants me to finish as fast as I can; So he can make me do it again. But first, slow it down Show me how you missed me.  Because it has to be me; Just me. Only me. Holding me close and moaning softly into my neck Stroking my hair Cradling my face in that way you know makes me feel wanted. His hands searching all over and never seem to find-- That's okay, take your time. You look at me like I'm a galaxy, but I'm a supernova. I'm going to ...
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Characters that Resonate with Me - Extended version

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  Akutagawa Ryunosuke - Bungo Stray Dogs Like Akutagawa, I'm an approval seeker. It might go against my core values to care so deeply about how one person feels about me, but it's a deeply ingrained trauma that's not so easy to unlearn. On top of that, Akutagawa shows open hostility to the person he perceives is the object of his former boss' affection (Atsushi). I may not always pick a fight with someone I'm jealous of, but I can relate to barely veiled contempt for them. Oh, do I ever. I can learn from him by realizing my own strength and power and not needing someone else's approval before I acknowledge myself. Akutagawa from Bungo Stray Dogs Akemi Homura - Puella Magi Madoka Magica I haven't seen this anime since Thanksgiving 2023, but it was profoundly impactful to me. Akemi is this bad ass who doesn't care how she's perceived (unlike Akutagawa) because her goal of saving Madoka is all that matters. She doesn't care how many times she has to...
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Cliches, Idioms, and Trite Expressions that Suck

The following list has been adapted and updated from a 2012 blog I started called "I'll Take the Stairs".    "Quitting Cold Turkey"  - Hey! I happen to like cold turkey. "Don't do the crime, if you can't do the time."  - Well, people don't commit crimes because they don't think they can do the time. They commit them because they think they can get away with it. You also can't underestimate stupidity and desperation. "It's always darkest before the dawn." -  Sure, this means that it's going to get worse before it gets better, but factually, it's just as dark right before dawn as it is at any other time. Midnight, 2 AM, 4 AM--all the same amount of darkness.  "I could care less."  - Actually, you couldn't. "It's plain to see."  - If one more poem or song uses this, I will simply have to kill someone. Although, what bearing does their ineffective word usage have on me? None. But words a...
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*Spoilers!* Demon Slayer: Infinity Castle Review

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Demon Slayer Infinity Castle by Favorisxp on DeviantArt Overall Thoughts I didn't start watching Demon Slayer until after the Entertainment District was already out. It was my 4th anime overall (I'm a late bloomer) and it really showed me what the medium of anime was capable of. I've been endeared to it ever since. I read the manga after the Swordsmith Village Arc and read the Infinity Castle arc again when the movies were announced.  I had high hopes going into the first Infinity Castle movie, but when I tell you that it blew my mind, I mean sometimes I was sitting slack jawed in amazement at the animation. That was a given. But the story aspects were well-woven together and didn't deviate much from the manga. Though I have read it, I'm not an expert, so I can't say exactly what they changed or didn't, but from what I remember, they kept things in pretty much the same order. I was wondering if they would chop up the fights and make sure we saw all of one fi...
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Giving One Piece a Chance

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Up until a couple months ago, I was a One Piece hater. I had many reasons--the fanbase was obnoxious and pushy, the anime was way too long, and the artwork and story didn't look interesting me. These could be casual reasons for not watching, but they turned into hate because of how ubiquitous the show is on social media (and how loud their fans are). But I realized that I couldn't hate a show I hadn't ever watched. Friends and internet strangers told me it would take 50, 100, 200, even 500 episodes to "get good". Initially I assured them I wasn't going to watch something that took that long to be interesting. Rather than take their word for it, I had to see for myself. If the early episodes truly were bad or boring or whatever definition of "not good", I'd drop the show and go back to hating it. I'm currently 70-ish episodes in, the crew is on the way to Alabasta Island. It's safe to say that I like the anime, even at this p9oint. I reall...
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My LGBTQ Identity Is Actually Pretty Straight-Forward

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I've known since I was at least 12 that I liked girls. I knew it was more than just as friends, too, because of the funny feelings I'd get between my legs. I even experimented a little bit with my best friend at the time. I wrote about it in my diary. The excitement and desire was clear from my writings at the time. I don't remember when I learned the word bisexual or if that was the same moment I accepted myself as bisexual, but as far as I'm concerned, it doesn't matter. I've been this way for a long time. Despite this, my sexual and romantic experience has been overwhelmingly male dominated. Not exclusively, but predominantly. It's not something I was happy with per se, but I felt I had had little choice in the matter. It had just worked out this way. I remember my sponsor in a 12-step program told me that she had heard of experiences of women addressing their trauma and deeper validation issues and then going on to exclusively date women. I'll never ...
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