self-embodiment of perfection

Photo by Simon Hurry on Unsplash I am quick to be offended. Slow to forgive. I have a persecution complex almost as big as my god complex. I stay angry. Stay protecting those who never asked me to. I'm fighting new battles to make up for the ones I lost. There's heaviness in the memories but also in the things I forgot. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I never claimed to be unbreakable. All these cracks you see are fracture lines. Not by design, they're warning signs. I'm a glass cannon-- anything can be my fodder. You thought I was a bad son; I'm an even worse daughter. Fragile like a baby, like an egg just laid, like a hand grenade. This is just a bad dream, maybe. I've shattered into a thousand pieces. I'll shatter into a thousand more. I scream into the void and you scream back: "What are you so angry for?" "You're always out to prove yourself to a judge and jury unaware. You're making

  I posted 2 videos on 8/13 (Tues) focused on Eren Yeager and Levi Ackermann. If you didn't see them, it was essentially talking about some things I'm going through and using anime characters analogously to my life.  I took them down because a) they felt very vulnerable to be available on my profile all the time, and b) because I said some spiteful things about Levi that yes, I do mean, but I didn't like posting it publicly when I have a lot of friends who love him deeply. If you wanna see the videos, DM me on IG lol. I don't mind sharing them with certain people. I just don't want to keep them up on my page. But I must stress that it depends on who you are! Doesn't hurt to ask though. This is not an explanation nor is it an apology. I've felt for a solid week that I want to open up and share some things. I'm going to do that here though, where I can easily edit my feelings and analogies. I'm going through a tough time right now. Just a lot of compou