getting back to me



Things have been chaotic, unfocused, and straight up embarrassing for the past 2 months. My dating and love life, work, physical health, mental health--all have been either neglected or incredibly affected by my actions. I'm making decisions I'm not proud of, feel unsure of who I am, and I've hurt 3 people, at least, in the process. I don't feel good right now and it's entirely my fault. 

I am confused about my direction and next steps. I know things that I need to do to better myself, but I'm unable to do them. I feel disconnected from who I am and what my values are.

So here's what I think I need to do; execution and implementation are another conversation:

  • get back to therapy
  • daily journaling
  • work on self-esteem
  • put my hobbies and interests first
  • prioritize time with friends
  • start going to the gym
  • work on focus and attention, especially for work
  • get back in touch with my values

This is not a comprehensive list but it's a good start. 

To be honest, I just feel lost. I hate that I hurt people. I want to better myself so I don't do it again. I want to make amends to those people but they don't want to hear from me right now and I have to live with that. 

My goal is to feel connected to myself again. If you have any advice or words of wisdom, I'm happy to hear them. Otherwise, thank you for reading :)


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