self-embodiment of perfection

I just got into and out of a relationship in like a week, and it had me reflecting on the men in my past. For this exercise, I picked any man who had a significant impact on me and wrote them all letters, going into detail about what happened and how it impacted me. I changed everyone's name except Corey's because I think he's the only one who I have mentioned by name on Threads. Raphael: I was so enamored by you when we met. However, you were married, and that would continue to be a thread that was pulled throughout our entire "relationship." We did "date", however legitimate or illegitimate it was with your marriage, but it was pretty short-lived. Less than a year. You lied to me a lot, but I didn't care. I was caught up in the fantasy--you were hot and you could sing and play guitar. What else does a girl need? Our relationship was fraught with arguments and fighting. We were never going to last in a long-distance relationship. We both hurt each

Current lock scren Current phone backround Here's some of the highlights of what I've been up to this past 7ish days. -I have a boyfriend now! His name is Corey. We are in an open relationship but I love that he's my main person. He's a nerd who is covered in tattoos related to gaming and cartoons. He has a massive game and movie collection. I met him at board game night a few weeks ago!  Neither of us have been in an open relationship but we have been clear about the parameters and I imagine we will fine-tune it from here. This was something essential to me before making us official. -Therapy is intense lately. I'm triggered a lot. I'm probably not handling it the best but I'm handling it the best way I know how. Drugs, sex, avoidance lol. I'm trying to journal, be honest in therapy, and work on my self-care activities again. -My schedule is always unbelievably full so I'm trying to add back in me time. I book my social calendar to the brim and then